Spring is in the air. It has been a long winter with most of my energy going to adjusting to the new job. In balance, it’s more fun than not. I’ve come to recognize that it is best to embrace what life delivers… even when it wakes you up in the middle of the night. Last night was one of those nights, nightmares and disconcerting anxiety. I stopped fighting it at 6:00 and got out up.
I decided to listen to Eckhart Tolle on my iPod Touch (by the way, I LOVE my iPod Touch!) His message is simple… get out of the future and the past and experience this moment. So simple, yet so challenging. The mind, and maybe my mind more than most, loves to wander around the possibilities of what will come next. Or better yet, what’s wrong with how I’m feeling now. There are a million ways to negotiate with myself — but that’s pretty crazy, right? How do you negotiate with yourself? Who is talking to whom? How many people are in there anyway?
So back to this morning and Eckhart. I listened to his funny voice and after a while it was just fine that I was feeling anxious. I did not need to explain why I had a bad dream. Eventually I dosed off. And when I woke up, it was after eight o’clock — a totally decadent time to start the day.
For the first time in quite a while, there was nothing that needed to be done over the weekend. Michael and I had a leisurely morning: coffee at Vicki Lees, shopping in town (lots of sales, doing my part for the economy and all), watching a movie and now writing a blog for the first time in months. It’s a new day. It’s a new season. Oscar is sitting on my lap, purring away. Life is good, right now. What else is there?
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